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This thing…

And so today, while i was aimlessly browsing through facebook, i came across a friend’s status saying that we shouldn’t prioritize on those who make us an option/a mere choice.

 Then i wondered. That sounds so true. BUT. I still prioritize on something that may treat me like an option. Why do i bother putting myself through all these? I realized that it’s because this thing, this very thing that sometimes make me feel like nothing can make me feel like the only thing that matter in the world. This thing that makes me feel like nothing at times can give me the encouragement to carry on. This thing that makes me feel like nothing at times can bring me all the joy in the world.

And at this very moment, this thing that feels like nothing has read how i felt. And this thing may not respond to me anymore. But I’m hoping that this thing will understand me this time and just look at me in the eye and tell me it’s all gonna be okay and that we’ll try because we both matter to each other.

This thing…obviously means so much to me.

This thing… I wish you’d realize.

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And I wonder.

Yes. I wonder. Why do I put myself through this? Why do I allow myself to suffer and deprive myself of this joy I could attain IF I just let it go.

Because I have a dream. I have a future. I have people I do not wanna let down.

So I choose to continue. To continue fighting. To get this freaking degree. A degree in Economics.

SCREW YOU MATH!

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